It may appear that I've done very little over the last few years, while in fact I've been exceedingly busy with my artwork and stories. Most of them are just very rough sketches and personal guides and that will help me maintain consistency and make plans for the storyline; I don't want it to be just a simple "once upon a time..." and for all the labor I pour into it I want everything to turn out right and flow well. I want to share what I've done but I have to be sure that it won't spoil the story. There are certain facts that are not meant to be known until later (though I have no doubts people will have things figured out anyway, but that's alright because I trust it will still be entertaining).
What I can say is that one main protagonist is a character I've had for many years, though her name will be different in this series so that she is not associated 100% with her in-game versions. I want a division between all the RPGs I've created her for and my own story. ^_^ Yeah, it's Malkhai, but in this story it will be "Marloe" instead. She's not entirely like her Oblivion counterpart, though she does retain a lot of what I believed is liked about her- she'll be the same cheeky, opinionated, confident, scruffy, strong-willed, extremely stubborn, chatty elf ("Alpine Elf", to be exact). Why "Marloe"? I personally think it suits her- it sounds, to me, like the name of a strong and self-reliant woman who won't take crap from anyone. It could be short for something- I haven't decided yet.
Behind every story is an origin rooted in something the writer/author thoroughly enjoyed, usually someone else's story. I won't deny that TES has been a major inspiration, though I do strive to do what I can to make it as original as possible. I know at least three people that have taken what was originally fan works and made it into something more complex and personally theirs. Darcy's "Code Name: Hunter" series, for an example; I remember way back the 00's when she wrote and illustrated really great Danger Mouse fan stories/comics/art. That ultimately became something hers alone, and it's doing extremely well (I do get nostalgic for the DM stuff though )
I figured if I am changing so much about the TES universe in my fan works, including the personality and background of Lucien LaChance... if I have anxieties over creative and fun avenues that are never explored in other games/shows (And growing tired of the constant nitpicks from people who tell me I'm portraying people wrong and know nothing about the TES universe), I might as well just write my own story instead of using up all that creative juice on fan fiction and art that, while fun to work on, will not get me very far as someone who prefers to make an actual living as an artist/writer. There's more freedom to do what ever I want with whomever I want (I'm sure there will be some objections, but it's alright.)
Now the story is far more complex than it was before and would hardly suggest it was ever a TES faniverse to begin with, and that's very much the way I want it. I have faith that it will turn out well, I just have to be patient, confident, and determined.
It also helps to know that there are blessings of approval and faith from others - encouragement in any shape or form goes a long way. What ever is given is always appreciated, even small and simple words. I've received a lot of it and I can't tell you how helpful it's been to me after stewing in a funk over what was probably the most humiliating and depressing time of my life. Thank you all so much- everyone who has pulled me out of that and continued to believe in me. God bless you all!